Monday, May 21, 2012

Rough night

It was a long and rough nights sleep however nothing like an exhilarating beating of the treadmill and stair master to get me going...not forgetting some killer squats!!!!!

Getting S.A ready to run and swim with my siblings :)

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Transformation

Daily....something inside me is waking up and joining this awesome
party called LIFE.

Picture a lush green forest with gorgeous towering trees....there am I
propped up against a tree sitting on the floor smiling and looking up
to the beautiful blue sky."Soul" puts out it's welcoming hand to guide
me further along and whispers "It's time to continue...."

Monday, May 14, 2012

Denial

So yesterday was 11 months for mum and mothers day. I stupidly chose to be in denial of the day and avoided the influx of messages on my phone from friends and family.

When I got to lunch time I braved looking at my phone and I reacted weirdly and felt so withdrawn from the people around me. Life was reminding me for the twentieth time that I need to just let life flow.

Thanks to new work colleagues I had a great ending to the day without them knowing what was going on within me. I was dreading going home and having the reality sink in more so of the day that it was. Luckily I was invited to tag along with work mates to stop at the mall en-route home. A good few laughs over dinner in the food court made it all better.

Thank you to all of you who were thinking of me and showered me with beautiful messages.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Everything will be alright

After a week of rude claustrophobic feelings attacking me and the starts of panic attacks I reflect and smile deeply as I think that "I made it through and YES...Everything will be alright."
Anxious about my trip home as it's going to be bitter-sweet however I have made the choice to just be and let my journey take it's course and to feel the feelings and just let my guard now. The only way through to the other end is to dive into the emotions and embrace it.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012